Dear Jane,
I have a confession to make. I'm afraid, afraid to live and let go, as they say. I've never been in this kind of situation before, I've never had the nerves to deal with these kind of thoughts. But I'll have to, otherwise I can't accept anyone in. What happens if I'll never get over these fears? Will I stay this way forever? What about my strength, my powerful mind. I'm able to heal the wounds from the past. Defeat the everlasting thoughts that are racing through my head. They aren't real, right? Thoughts aren't real, they can't exist, that's impossible in every way. But still, the fear stays.
The famous 'what if?' pops up every time I'm trying to collect the positive sides of life, trying to relative my thoughts. It makes no sense how the past keeps running towards me, and although I keep moving forward, it stays in front of me. So.. what if it would be possible that thoughts are able to become reality? All the forgotten memories will return to me, stay by my side while I'm trying to find my way and path in this life. They will give me the strength to overcome fears and face reality. It isn't actually necessary for thoughts or memories to become real, because they exist to me, in me, for me. Forever. I'm the one who makes these memories, thoughts, feelings. It's no one else but me who can give me the strength to live my life. To survive reality. I'm ready for it, as I'll always be from no on.
Yours truly,
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